Happy Birthday, Stu!

I'm realizing, more and more, I don't like PEOPLE.  PEOPLE as a whole are negative, vile, dark.  I need that in my life about as much as I need a lobotomy.  Heck, never mind *me*.  That is a general statement that EVERYONE should hold as a mantra.

Of course there are INDIVIDUALS who are quite lovely and whom I adore on varying levels.  Sadly, that list is getting smaller and smaller.  The Darkness is spreading.

I know people change, energies change.  And I know that I am growing by leaps and bounds, lots of Personal Growth going on for me these last few months (and oh so much more to come).  The good thing is I LIKE the person I'm becoming, which only encourages more growth.  I'm growing like a weed, lol!  I'm smiling more, walking taller, taking chances.  Heck, I bought a dress the other day that I would NEVER have thought to wear out in public...  Not as every day wear - maybe as a costume.  I bought it, and I wore it that night to a restaurant to celebrate Amanda's birthday.  I looked GOOOOOD.  Hawt, sexy, whatever.  And I did it for ME, not because I was hoping to catch the eye of some (any) guy.

But I digress...  Last night there was a birthday party.  I wasn't sure if I was going to go as I was at an event yesterday and I'm usually pretty drained after those.  But in the end there were doggies who were sharing their awesome energy.  And I was brazenly ballzy and gave Shawn my number and it was a good day Energy Wise so I figured I'd be ok.  See, the party was being held by people I like.  The guest list...  *sigh*  Shields UP!  It's like just about everyone in The Community that makes me squick is on that guest list.  They are fake & spiteful, they spread the rumour(s), they know ALL the DIRT and LOVE to fill you in.  They are the Vampires.  But Patricia and I had an agreement.  Go in, spend a bit of time, and the first one to give the signal meant it was time to GO.  No muss, no fuss.  Patricia had been on Stu Duty all day, keeping him out of the house while it was made ready for his party, so they had a car load.  Patricia was going to drop everyone off and then come get me.  Soon as she walked in the house, she altered the plans.  She was NOT going to subject me to the Excessive Negativity that was Stu's Birthday Party.  She ended up telling a couple of people off, Stu had to ground her out before she could drive home.  And as soon as she got home she threw up.

In the course of our conversation today, one name in particular was brought up.  And I came clean.  This is one of those people that as soon as I'm able to I walk away.  Yes, I know it makes me out to be rude and inconsiderate.  But, um, it's either I walk away OR I stay put and end up saying just what I think of this person and it isn't in any way polite.  And I've only ever seen her twice.  I know her, know her Energy.  She's sent me facebook friend requests and I've clicked ignore each time.  Nope, not having none of it chuck.

Although who knows, maybe I'll be "allowed" to speak my peace more and more, this new person I'm becoming.  Could be a fun and interesting year...  Tickets & popcorn will be available for purchase, lol!